I’ve spent a lot of time wrestling with the idea of passion—what it means, how to find it, and whether or not I’m actually walking in it. If I’m being honest, I’ve had seasons where I felt completely lost, chasing after things that looked exciting in someone else’s life, only to end up feeling stuck, frustrated, and unsure of where I belonged.
For so long, I let myself be influenced by what I saw in others. I’d see someone thriving in their gift—whether it was putting together the perfect outfit, building a successful business, or just seeming so sure of their purpose—and I’d think, Maybe I should do that, too. But when I tried to step into someone else’s lane, it never quite fit.
That’s been a hard thing to navigate.
I’ve had to learn that passion isn’t always this bright, burning fire that comes naturally and effortlessly. Sometimes it’s something you grow into. Sometimes it’s something you have to wrestle with and fight for. And sometimes, it’s something you don’t even recognize until you step back and really look at your life.
I love fashion. I love seeing how other women put outfits together in such an effortless, beautiful way. And sometimes, I genuinely enjoy putting together a cute outfit too. But most of the time, keeping up with trends and styling new looks feels exhausting to me. And that was an important realization—not that I should walk away from something I enjoy, but that I don’t have to force myself to make it my thing.
And that’s been the key for me—figuring out what is truly mine.
There are things in my life that don’t come naturally but are still worth the effort. There are things I want to grow in, even when they aren’t easy. But what I don’t want is to live in a constant cycle of striving—of trying to be the best at everything, of feeling like I have to do it all perfectly.
Because I don’t. And I’m learning to be okay with that.
I used to think passion was something I had to chase-something big, something I needed to find. But what if passion isn't about chasing at all? What if it's about uncovering it, in the everyday moments and by just being faithful where we are?
For me, passion has shown up in many ways. It's not always about one thing, but about being faithful to what's in front of me-whether it's making someone feel welcome, having a conversation, or finding joy in simple moments. I've realized that passion isn't just something you find once-it's something that grows as you walk through life, finding meaning and purpose where you are.
That is what drives me. But even in that, there are hard days. There are moments when I wonder if I’m actually doing what I’m supposed to be doing, moments when passion doesn’t feel as strong, moments when I feel exhausted.
And I think that’s okay. Passion isn’t about always feeling inspired. Sometimes, it’s just about being faithful in the small, everyday moments.
I used to think passion was one big thing I had to figure out—like if I could just unlock the right door, everything would click into place. But now I’m starting to believe that maybe passion is simply being present where my feet are. Maybe it’s less about chasing something huge and more about showing up, paying attention, and seeing what God is teaching me right here, today.
That’s what I’m trying to lean into. That’s what I’m still figuring out.
I don’t have it all sorted out. And if you’re wrestling with this too, just know—you’re not alone.
Maybe passion isn't something we have to chase. Maybe it's something we uncover, little by little, right where we are.